Refocus!!!!!!

          I feel that there is this expectation in pretty much all aspects of my life that I need to be perfect. Mistakes are seen as a tragedy. It's not always the pressure from outside sources but also my inner sources (myself). There are days where I can work past that pressure and know that doing my best is what counts and just push forward. However lately it hasn't been easy. I have been struggling to keep my balance in my life's responsibilities. There are days where it's a struggle to just wake up and get through the door to work but once I do I feel better and I just try to take it a day at a time. I am sorry that I sound a bit of a pessimist but I fight that inner pessimist every day to be more of a optimist. That has been my fight all of my life, I know I am not the only one.

  It's time for refocus! I know this! I can't change my life and start brand new. I must simply refocus and find solution to the struggles I am having.

I know that I can be better with alot of things.  I will set new goals and refocus!

1) Spend at least 5 minutes a day reading the scriptures!
2) Pray every morning and evening and kneel. Pray more often through out the day.
3) Be a better communicator in all aspects of my life: Pray for strength to over come my fears of communication.
4) Strive to see the positive in all situations and people!


These are just some...

Eat, Pray, Love

Last night, I put on the movie " Eat, Pray, Love" which I had been wanting to see and starting putting my bed together. So backing up , my bed broke , it was wooden and old and it just broke. I had to get a new metal framed one. I tried to put the bed together and it wasn't working for me so I was going to wait until my aunt comes home and helps me.

While , I loved the movie, it even made me cry at the end because at the end she not only found her balance so to speak but also found love. I look at movies like that and in some respect wish it was me. I wish it was so easy to just drop your work, etc and just go off to foreign countries in search of yourself. Of course she was somewhat wealthy with her writing , I'm guessing.  Movies also make it seem like it's so easy to just fall in love and find that person while it's not!

Do we trully have get to that point where we feel trully balanced? I feel like juggling everyday to make things work.  I strive to put priorities first and go from there and it seems , I never quite get any further on my to do list than those priorities. Yes, I know it's important and great I am getting those things done but I wish there was a balance between all things. I feel like all I do is homework, going to work and doing work stuff and more. I suppose the only thing we can do is do our best and keep truckin  and of course stay positive.