Back up the Truck!

Enjoying the moment has never been something I would say I do. I often rush things or worry about things before their time when I could be loving the moment and finding joy in the moment. I have recently had a great experience and I spent a great deal of time worrying about what was to come when I don't even know what the future holds. All we can do is enjoy the moment ! We can't spend our time worrying about everything then we will have a life full of worrying and not of joy. So I have decided to strive to be better about just enjoying the moments that my Heavenly Father gives me and when I get more amazing moments I will be grateful. When we rush through moments we don't always see how there is to see and miss out on blessings. I know it's something that is hard but I realize and I know I'll be a happier person if I do. Heavenly Father has blessed me with so much. He has given me so many growing , joyful moments in my life and I am going to do my best to see the blessings in the moment and not rush through them.

Repetition

Today I was so grateful to hear Sister Oaks, who wrote A Single Voice and is married to Elder Oaks. Many of the wonderful things she spoke of I had heard before but that wasn't bad because repetition is something we need. Just as exercise every day may seem repetitious but it's important and in the long run we will be healthier for doing it. The title of her talk was God knows where we are!!!!! She made me laugh and she helped remind me of things I often forget when things get crazy. Repetition is not a bad thing but I just wish I could get it sooner but I guess as well have to continue to practice riding a bike we continuely have to learn how to follow God and to have faith. If it only took us one learning experience to have 100% faith in God all the time we wouldn't still be here learning and progressing in our earthly state. I am grateful for all the learning experiences I have had in my life. I have also learned from others as well from their experience. I have a friend as some of you know that was in a serious car accident and has had to go through surgeries and other struggles so she can walk again. She finds things to be grateful everyday. The few times I have been able to visit her she has brought me joy because of her optimistic spirit and the great blessings I get from just knowing her. She has helped me to see that as we use gratitude and postive thoughts everyday and continue to repeatly do those things we can have great joy. I have often been a person that thought negatively of myself despite my outward smile! I often compare myself to others thinking I wish I was like this person. Going back to the talk that Sister Oaks spoke of the fact we are each precious children and he has a plan for us... DO YOUR BEST!!!! We have heard those things before but.... I thought I am where I am for a reason. I have to be reminded of this precious principle many times because I often feel well I am just Jen Lewis but... in the last several months I have done my best to see what it is that is great about me. I have so many blessings in my life that have guided me here. I am definately not where I expected to be now but... God's plan is amazing and is timing is his own and not our own so what else could I have expected. I have friends and family that love me and don't expect me to be perfect and still love me even if I mess up ( I have always had the silly idea that if I messed up they wouldn't love me). I have a roof over my head and a car and a job as well as my education in psychology and in special education. God has lead me where I am now and where I will go! I can overcome my weaknesses and my struggles because of the Atonement of Jesus Christ which is the greatest blessing of all. It's the small and simple things in our lives that we must see and celebrate them.